This Is The Day

This is the day I have been both looking forward to and dreading for about 3 months now.

Today is the day John leaves for basic training. *sigh*

We have spent the last week hanging out and just being a family, which has been wonderful. No work, no school, no real responsibilities....bliss. Last night I helped John check off each item on his packing list, but it still didn't seem completely real. This morning I drove him to the Military Entrance Processing Station (MEPS) at 5am, and again---still didn't seem real. Now that I'm waiting for a phone call from his recruiter, I'm starting to get antsy.
The phone call I am waiting for will hopefully come around 12pm. The recruiter will let me know it's time to come to the airport and give our last hugs and kisses to Daddy. I'm certainly excited for John--I think he's a wonderful man of integrity and patriotism--but at the same time I'm hesitant to write any true feelings. I simply don't have any.

Numb would best explain what I am right now. That's not a bad thing, mind you--it's just what I am. There is definitely no anger or frustration, and the fear I was feeling about 3 weeks ago is gone. I am positive I can do this alone, as long as it's only for 10-11wks. *wink*

I remind myself every day that there are PLENTY of women making bigger sacrifices than I am. They spend months/years alone, and they move all over the country at a moment's notice. I have the freedom to stay put and surround myself with helpful and loving family and friends.
That's great in my book.

So.......this is the day. I am both glad and sad that it has arrived.

~Mel