This post is kind of different. It's not about something cute or funny that one of my kiddos did. It's not about one of my accomplishments, or even John's. It's not about some huge catastrophe or wonderful event. It's simply about an understanding.
Lately I have been struggling to balance children, marriage, bills, my business, etc. It seems like with the holidays fast approaching, I can't seem to get a handle on the days/weeks/months that are spinning out of control toward the new year. I am constantly pre-occupied with something.
I dropped John off at the airport this afternoon (he left for an EMS conference for a few days), and I found myself crying on the way home. Why in the world was I crying over that?!? I think it was because I was afraid---afraid that something would happen to him, the airplane, us...
I have never liked to stay by myself for long periods of time, and especially at night. I can stay up until 4am sewing, just so I don't have to close my eyes. Eventually sleep wins out though.
As I sat here in my recliner taking a break from sewing, I was faced with a question: Do I really trust Him with everything? My prayer was simple. "Lord, remind me that YOU are sufficient. Your grace is sufficient, your protection is sufficient, and your love for me is sufficient."
I hope this is an encouragement to my friends in bloggerland. Have a blessed weekend!
2 comments:
It's so difficult to give up the "control" that we think we have. The "safety" that we think we have. The "whatever" that we think we have and rely on what God is, does, and has in store for us. Thanks for the reminder - I often think I have some of those things, when really He does. Always. (Plus, his plans work out better than mine ever do...)
Very insightful!! :) Thanks Melissa!
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